I'm curious how the people spend their time when they r 16 years old.
when I think about mine 16 years old,I have lots of feelings.
Now only feel regret.
If i could change the past,I will work hard on it.

16 years old I exposed myself to outside more.
i get chance to participate on various activity,lots of memories.
终究还是过去了，不会再有的过去。

Person who does not have goal and aspirations r blank.I'm know it very well.
thinking want bring happiness to friend and people i loved,
but the problem is "who am I" im also not known well.
keep saying positive thing,now almost become a slogan just like "1 Malaysia",
nice to look,nice to heard but damn useless.
because inside my heart I know that I could't believe such wonderful hope and words.

but free to say right?讲罢了嘛！
maybe everyday drank in such positive environment,ppl will become positive too.

Form 6 isn't the right choice?
Im not sure,not sure what im doing is it a right thing?
Am I following what i want or im just follow the trend only?
last time I think that get more choice mean get more chance.

but I realize,those who are does not have target,more choices it's no use.
when you not even know where the destinations,choose which road it seems like no difference already.

there is always a way out?
but,where the way?anyone show me?

when I think about the past happy matter,my heart just feel likes pulling the pain nerve.
I think I'm the weaker,not the time or others.
my emotions and feelings no more remained when the time passes through.

maybe this is "But I syndrome".
I know I should sleep,but I cannot sleep;
I know I should happy,but I still moody;
I know I should be friendly,but the 1st thing come to the mind is i'm not interested.

still not confident to myself,when facing the life still have many "not sure" and consideration.
choose not to think actually is "tao bi"
自命清高
really cannot imagine that people use this word on me now.
now i also confuse,maybe im just like what they said?

actually also realize many things i'm not really like it,
maybe just because i need following the flowing,or it benefit to me,
or it's necessary or what I should do.
just because of these reasons,I forced myself to like it,or get it.

the life is boring,
but I still feel that have something inside my heart it's excited.
actually what Im expect for?

迟了好久的一篇介绍，这一本《我想要的，只是一个拥抱而已。》
What I am Looking for is but a hug.



这本书从序开始就让我感觉很悲伤，男女主角名字的由来，正正解释了这种悲伤的氛围。

这本书，是橘子（曹筱如）献给她哥哥曹正彦，纪念她存在过，却未曾拥抱过的哥哥。
当橘子还再为广告写文案时，她尝试google了她哥哥的名字，
却没有任何搜寻结果显示，空白的好像哥哥从来不存在一样。
哥哥因车祸去世的早，这个世界还来不及认识他。

萧雨萱，一位影响橘子很深的读者。
一般上，作家都有一贯的低调，尽量不跟读者私下接触，
也要把小说和生活区分开来。
雨萱影响了作者许许多多的原来的想法，所以也把她放进了书中。

故事的模式很老套，两男一女之前的纠葛，
加上一些配角增加整个小说张力，结局也是预料当中，
可是确实很悲伤。

爱与不爱，不能爱和不敢爱，
衍生出来的悲伤、以及无奈。

看到最后眼睛感觉湿湿的，虽然这种年纪为爱情故事落泪很愚蠢并且很可笑，
但是感动我的不只是爱情还有友情，和不能变成爱情的感情。
很真。

会感动，是因为把自己带进书中的角色，随着他们的喜悲起伏。


很喜欢书本描述的青春。

因为想要证明青春，疯狂的追求不同的刺激，
想要挑战自己的极限，然後摔的伤痕累累。

还是因为控制不了情绪，对朋友恶言相向，
后悔了却不好意思先低头。

以及年轻人最常遇到的问题，与亲人大小声，
不愉快过后一人的落寞。

还是很爱一个人，却一直不肯说出口的复杂心情，
到最后终于来不及了……

这一些，每天都在我们周围发生。不是吗？


我对于萧雨萱和曹正彦之间的来不及感到可惜；
我对与曹正彦和萧凯轩之前的友情很身同感受；
小姑姑和曹正彦亲人之间的家族情感感到欣慰。


其实我很喜欢拥抱的感觉。
拥抱的感觉很温暖，可是我们有谁可以放心去拥抱呢？
在国外，拥抱是一种礼貌；可是对我们东方人而言，拥抱却显得很别扭。
自己没真正大力拥抱过，只是在胸口之间留下一点空间，
而且都是因别人要求才做的。

有时候面对重视的人，我们经常想表达一些却说不出口，
也许拥抱就能派上用场。
一切尽在不言中，无意间把两人的距离牵引。